Recently, I have been feeling happily loved by someone really special to me. Hrmm. Although it's been just officially two months but the feelings are growing. Mom came recently and when she saw him, she did not approve of me being with him. The reason was, our religions were of the different kind.
I was really disappointed when I heard it coming from her although I had already expected it in a way. She said to me not to get serious and even if possible, break off the relationship. But the thing is, although I cannot say I am fully in love with him, I love him in a way and I care for him alot. Though my heart hadn't been given away yet...The feelings are there and I can't just break it off like that. He has loved me so much and done so much for me.
Today he picked me up from home to send me to work. We arrived at Suntec City and I suddenly felt really hungry, so we stopped by Burger King and while he typed out his concuctions for the international drinks thinggy, I ate a Whooper Burger! hee^^ After that, we just hung out and that's when things started getting all....messed up =.="
I suddenly just felt really emotional, messed up and confused. I didn't know what I want. I didn't know..seriously, my mind was blank and as he walked me to my restaurant, I just suddenly asked for a break up. When I said those two words, I felt my heart just dropped six feet under. I knew immediately that I couldn't loose him but in a way, I had to...because of my mom.
But the thing is.......
I DON'T WANT TO
LOOSE HIM!
I feel so happily loved when I'm with him.
Who in their right mnd would let go of that?!
He doesn't make me feel only happy but very happy. I feel safe when I'm with him. It's as though all my troubles go away whenever I'm with him. How can I let go of something that makes me happy. But although I sncerely want to be with him, I don't know whether its a right decision to be with me. He asks me whether I have doubts, my answer is yes, honestly yes.
Gawd.
We'll just have to see how things goes. The thing now is that he die die dn't wana let me go, and its good to know he wants me this bad. But the thing is how if thngs don't work out between us...hrmm. I love him, that's for sure. I however, am still at blur.
"We make the future, not the let the future make us" - Khalid
♥ Yomi.
I was really disappointed when I heard it coming from her although I had already expected it in a way. She said to me not to get serious and even if possible, break off the relationship. But the thing is, although I cannot say I am fully in love with him, I love him in a way and I care for him alot. Though my heart hadn't been given away yet...The feelings are there and I can't just break it off like that. He has loved me so much and done so much for me.
Today he picked me up from home to send me to work. We arrived at Suntec City and I suddenly felt really hungry, so we stopped by Burger King and while he typed out his concuctions for the international drinks thinggy, I ate a Whooper Burger! hee^^ After that, we just hung out and that's when things started getting all....messed up =.="
I suddenly just felt really emotional, messed up and confused. I didn't know what I want. I didn't know..seriously, my mind was blank and as he walked me to my restaurant, I just suddenly asked for a break up. When I said those two words, I felt my heart just dropped six feet under. I knew immediately that I couldn't loose him but in a way, I had to...because of my mom.
But the thing is.......
I DON'T WANT TO
LOOSE HIM!
I feel so happily loved when I'm with him.
Who in their right mnd would let go of that?!
He doesn't make me feel only happy but very happy. I feel safe when I'm with him. It's as though all my troubles go away whenever I'm with him. How can I let go of something that makes me happy. But although I sncerely want to be with him, I don't know whether its a right decision to be with me. He asks me whether I have doubts, my answer is yes, honestly yes.
Gawd.
We'll just have to see how things goes. The thing now is that he die die dn't wana let me go, and its good to know he wants me this bad. But the thing is how if thngs don't work out between us...hrmm. I love him, that's for sure. I however, am still at blur.
"We make the future, not the let the future make us" - Khalid
♥ Yomi.
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
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