I've been meaning to tell this story for a long time. but somehow never got to it. and also because it wasn't the right time to tell the story. People wouldn't know how to digest the whole event that happened to me properly. and also I didn't know how people would react. so I kept things very quiet.
Haha. I'm sure most of you would be eager to know
what actually happened to me.
How, Where, Who, What and all of those.
what actually happened to me.
How, Where, Who, What and all of those.
Like I said I'm a single mother who's blessed with a beautiful baby girl :) I never expected one to come along so soon, and as usual although my little bubs is a real blessing, but how she came along was not something to be proud of and thus..the secretiveness when things all first happened.
The reason to come out and tell my story is to encourage others as well as explain to certain people who may easily think of me as a liar, and how easily I have lied about the events that have been happening in my life. but at the same time, they do not understand the level of seriousness and privacy the whole matter is about. during that time.
When all this started happening to me. It was a real shocker. I did not tell anyone. It was a kept secret between myself and the baby's father, Khalid. I myself was unable to believe what was happening, whether it was real or just an awful nightmare.
The both of us were in a total state of shock.
I was happy but then again, very ashamed that I was "knocked-up", disappointed, depressed, confused, embarrased, and very VERY self-conscious (about my growing tummy), it was a whole "mixed emotions" no one could explain. no one knew.
NO ONE.
not even my mum or family members.
(which later found out only when I was about 4-5months pregnant)
I had even come home for a short holiday to attend my cousin's engagement gathering sometime early december (I was already 4 months ++ then) and I told no one. Everyone thought I had just put on weight. hrmm. I was quiet throughout, even meeting up with friends and then I left for Singapore. after just 3 days being back in Kuching, still quiet.(which later found out only when I was about 4-5months pregnant)
I only called mum after that,
at the end of December to tell her I was pregnant.
will tell explain detail later.
at the end of December to tell her I was pregnant.
will tell explain detail later.
Anyway where do we start, before I start spilling all the goods. I think I shall tell my story in chapters. Cos it'll be too long to put the whole story into one whole full post with all the details. I thought I could summarise things but I can't. because it's complicated.
Labels: baby sunshine, my pregnancy, my story
"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
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She does makes hearts melts