That was yesterday, but today the doctors said that my Dad has to go for an operation. Something called ERCP ( Endoscopic Retrograde Cholangiopancreatography ) to help diagnose what's going on inside of him. If I'm not mistaken, they're gonna insert a tube through the nostrils right down to the stomach..and you betcha its gonna hurt. Gosh...
I'm not sure when is the operation, from what my mom has told me, its not a major operation but though its just a minor surgery..you never know when things can happen and when things happen, they happen fast. I pray everything goes well, I cannot bear to loose a father again..sighs*
Currently I'm just so numb, so many things happening in one go. Outside I may seem alright, happy-go-lucky and just so "rainbow" but fact is, I'm just blocking out all the negative emotions so that I won't have to feel any fear or pain or sadness. I want to be strong for myfamily, especially my mum. I want her to know that I'm strong and that she doesn't need to worry about me or my well-being.
I don't know anything anymore, I don't know what I'm gonna do...right now all I can do is just pray...sighs* I believe that God will get our family through this one way or another.
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Currently I'm just so numb, so many things happening in one go. Outside I may seem alright, happy-go-lucky and just so "rainbow" but fact is, I'm just blocking out all the negative emotions so that I won't have to feel any fear or pain or sadness. I want to be strong for myfamily, especially my mum. I want her to know that I'm strong and that she doesn't need to worry about me or my well-being.
I don't know anything anymore, I don't know what I'm gonna do...right now all I can do is just pray...sighs* I believe that God will get our family through this one way or another.
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