I feel as though my life, which was meant for something greater than this is never gonna get to where it's supposed to be. I'm suppose to be in my prime years, studying, excelling and fulfilling my dreams but am now feeling at my lowest - starts to get all emo - bah.

Things at work have been great until now. "someone" from somewhere came back after she finished helping out the new Padini Concept Store which opened recently @ One Borneo in Sabah. Anyway, she hates the person who introduced me to my current jo, and now it seems like she's taking it out on me. How do I deal with it?! ish.

I have a surprise. for you. for me. for everyone who's reading this. Khalid sorta, kinda proposed. yeah, you heard me..he proposed. It's finally official. He wants to marry me. I'm not saying that he didnt want to marry me before, but I mean..he wanted to wait and all. so now when he suddenly says he wants to marry me, I'm in total shock!

I'm not too sure if he has talked to my parents yet but I hope he does things the traditional way, like ask my parents for my hand in marriage before actually popping out the ring. Though it may seem old school, old school is sometimes really romantic.

But as for right now, I'm feeling confused. I have been waiting for this day for as long as I can remember. now that THAT DAY has come, I'm panicking! How will it be when I finally marry him? How will I face his parents? How about our religions? Will I have to convert? (I DON'T WANT TO CONVERT - no matter how much I love you Khalid, I will never convert into Islam *no offence* cos I LOVE MY JESUS!)

Will our marriage be able to last? Will we be able to solve our problems without ever the thought of divorce? I don't want a failed marriage. and I don't want to marry just because of the little one. yet no matter how much he convinces me. I'm never satisfied ebough to be convinced!

I'm so young yet I have chosen the road to mature faster than ever. It's like you know those games where you step on an accelerator and you just ZOOM! past the finishing line? like the ones in Pet Society's hurdle races? -____________-" I know I'm lame, but yeah it's like one of those. If you get what I mean. huhu :'( I need comfort. I need a hug. I need someone to just tell me that everything is gonna turn out fine. I need someone from the future to tell me that I'll make the right decision, and everything will be okay! *sighs*

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
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