+ + tough day, tough luck?

Here I am, trying so hard to concentrate
on the things I have to get done with.
but then again..
here I am, thinking of you -_____-"

I don't understand how you could have moved me so deeply without me realising it. I don't understand how you could have affected me this much when I know you are not ready to have me, or ever have me by your side. for long.

How could I have let this happen? put out my heart again, and for what?! just to get hurt? I'm confused, I trully am. yet everytime I am with you, I feel secured and at ease.

as though everything else
just fades away
and its only you and me.

I'm a sucker at love. and yet I know that it might just not be love at all. but the feelings and emotions that takes over for just that one moment. can anyone tell me what love is, again. Or is everyone just ignorant of its true meaning and gone towards just trying out, testing grounds.

Is it now all just TO USE and BE USED?
♥ what is love ♥
I trully don't know anymore.

Labels: emotional times, random\, thoughts

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
11:16 AM

posted by feanorayomi @ 11:16 AM 0 chocolates

+ + fcuked.

Today was a good day in whole, but it ended quite dreadfully. I don't know, there are so many things going on in my mind. My interview for the nursing scholarship is so freagging near and I don't have any bloody guarantors! and mind you, they need to earn at least RM2500! How am I gonna find guarantors who earn that much in such little time?! huhu T.T

Well. maybe to some of you it might not be a big deal as you may know "big" people, but someone like me knows that I have to start just trusting in God. continue praying hard and still try my best to find a qualified guarantor -____-"

I'm so fcuked.

I'm so bloody stressed about everything at the moment. I don't know. and nobody seems to be able to understand me! (I don't expect them to :S) with me being all tensed and all, the little one's paying the price as well. I'm so detached, mooody, cynical, sarcastic and morbid. my love ones are paying the price. That kinda sucks.

On a better note on things, have been pretty hooked AGAIN, to this song by U2 - One, the one where Bono did a duet with Mary J. Blige was kinda soul touching, and the duet with Sting was awesome too! but I still would prefer their original. and right now..I'm just hooked.

U2 - One

Is it getting better, or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...

One love, One life
When it's one need, in the night,
One love, we get to share it,
Leaves you baby if you, don't care for it,

Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...

Too late, Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other, carry each other
One...

Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much, more than a lot
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we, hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say..

Love is a temple, Love a higher law
Love is a temple, Love the higher law
You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on, to what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love, One blood
One life, you got to do what you should
One life, with each other
Sisters, Brothers
One life, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other, carry each other

One Life, One...

I so need a hug right now. It's 2:35am in the morning, am not sleeping when I have morning shift tomorrow -____-" argh. I'm so tired, but not sleepy..huehuehue. I feel so lonely. Well, besides it's only Jesus who can fill this empty donut hole. a perfect fit for the not so perfect soul :'( sighs. goodnight people.

Labels: emotional times, ramblings, rantings, scholarship, thoughts

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
11:42 PM

posted by feanorayomi @ 11:42 PM 0 chocolates

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