"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
2:36 AM

The weather has been really WET these days, raining every freaking day. Today was the first day in quite some time that it stopped for a time being. Like the eye of a hurricane..finally got some clothes to hang and dry in time. If not all soggy and smelly and then have to wash again -_____-" no point. wasting detergent. cheh.

Anyways just to make it official, since my bestfriend already knows about it. so no big surprise. Yes, I got accepted for the Asean Nursing Scholarship. out of a few hundred applicants, I was chosen for the top 20 spots for the interview and out of the 20, I was amongst the chosen 10 for the scholarship. and I'll be leaving in March. I'm not sure when, but I sure can't wait.

All I have to do now is just wait it out. Cos some of the younger ones (only 17) have just finished their SPM and are waiting for their results. so I have to wait along too. Haha. and then we'll all be flying together as a group to Singapore in March.

Well, what I found out about the Asean Nursing Scholarship during the briefing was that, it has been around for 10years. Yes, the Singaporean government - God bless their hearts - have been giving this scholarship for about 10years already..but this is their first time offering it in Sarawak. They have been going to Myanmar and China for the past 9years and his year, before they decided to try Kuching, Sarawak out.

How blessed am I. It's as though God planned everything for me.
God is good. I mean, how blind was I all this time. He was planning every step. I just couldn't see it. I was blinded by all the negativity. It's so hard you know, to keep positive. Keep praying for me. please :'(

I mean, I could have gotten a job in Singapore and missed this chance of furthering and continuing my studies again. and be working a sucky job for the rest of my life! but I got this. I got blessed with this. by His grace :) I'm blessed.


Well, the little one has finally got her hands working XD she started doing the "twinkle twinkle little star" finger movements today. So cute! :) She's growing so fast, coming 8months on the 20th of this month. I can't believe my eyes actually. Gosh, and I still can't believe the fact that I'm a mum. already. at the age of 21years.

Never had imagine my life to be this way. Through the trials and tribulations. I guess life turned out better than I expected it to be. People, I know I'm in no position to say this since I have also been ranting and rambling and complaining about how bad life is,

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
2:01 AM

Today was a good day in whole, but it ended quite dreadfully. I don't know, there are so many things going on in my mind. My interview for the nursing scholarship is so freagging near and I don't have any bloody guarantors! and mind you, they need to earn at least RM2500! How am I gonna find guarantors who earn that much in such little time?! huhu T.T

Well. maybe to some of you it might not be a big deal as you may know "big" people, but someone like me knows that I have to start just trusting in God. continue praying hard and still try my best to find a qualified guarantor -____-"


I'm so bloody stressed about everything at the moment. I don't know. and nobody seems to be able to understand me! (I don't expect them to :S) with me being all tensed and all, the little one's paying the price as well. I'm so detached, mooody, cynical, sarcastic and morbid. my love ones are paying the price. That kinda sucks.

On a better note on things, have been pretty hooked AGAIN, to this song by U2 - One, the one where Bono did a duet with Mary J. Blige was kinda soul touching, and the duet with Sting was awesome too! but I still would prefer their original. and right now..I'm just hooked.

"Coz you are the Brightest Star and I'm in love with who you are."
11:42 PM